Rantz....=.="

Today is not a very good day to me...sigh...Somehow, i am a little bit depressed for no apparent reason.. There are things that bothers me and gives me a headache. I bought this pink dress which is 'V' cut and my family don't let me wear it for God's sake! It is not like i'm exposing much flesh of myself but just a mere cleavage and shoulder..sigh.. Why are they so conservative? It is already 21st century and i'm still not allowed to wear a dress that i adore so much?! I can see how my money is wash down the drain... Hmm.. Must brainstorm a solution to this problem because my aunt's wedding buffet is next week's Friday and i'm still debating with my family on this dress issues!!

The second problem of mine is that I could not make up my mind on whether i should support or oppose the title of my academic essay, "Should parents be blamed for youth violence". It is a hard decision but I'm sure i will be forced to make one soon as the deadline is slowly creeping towards me!! This reminds me of something... A poem i learnt when i was in form 1 i think...Life Brief Candle by William Shakespeare.

Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time,
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools,
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more.
It is a tale, told by an idiot, full of sound and fury
Signifying nothing.

Actually i've always wonder why do i live in the first place? It is not like my existence actually mean something to anyone or affects anyone's destiny. Why must i try my best in everything and exhaust myself to the point of dying? Something must be wrong with me or should i blamed it on the 'kiasu' cells in me? It is not that i can't afford to lose to anyone but it is more like i enjoy the taste of victory and a sense of accomplishment!! It is satisfying everytime i managed to pull everything together and produce a near to perfect stuffs. Maybe life isn't so bad after all.. If i am not alive in the first place, i would not be able to taste all these interesting emotions in me! Haha.. This post of mine really show how conflicting my personalities are but who cares?! That is me, I don't need anyone's acceptance but myself. It is a free country with the freedom of speech and actions! (yeah right..)

Time for bed! Eyes still a bit red and swollen so i have to at least give it a good rest..
Good Night to my dear blog...