Boys more important than girls?!

Why is it that boys are always more important than girls?! From young till now, i'm forced to see it happening to my own life! My parents, especially my mom is so biased when it comes to me and my younger brother... She always say yes to whatever he wants and NO! to anything and everything i ever wanted to do or wished to own! Thank god i have my grandma there for me to give me the neccessary amount of love needed for a child to grow up healthily without serious sense of inferiority or mental problems.. I really love her a lot.. I really wish she would be with me for my whole life although i know it is not possible since she is turning 66 soon and i'm only turning 21 this year... Well, let's just hope she leads a longer and happy life~

My mom on the other hand, never cared for me till i'm like around 12 or so... So, how am i suppose to love her the most?? When people tell me that i should not treat her this way, it just mean that they don't understand my conditions and family situation well enough. If they know what has happened to me when i was young, they would totally understand why I feel so much for my grandma and nothing much for her.

I still remember the time when i slipped at home due to wet slippery floor and i landed on my back like 'BAM' and kicked the washing machine at the same time. My mom actually rushed towards the scene and looked at the WASHING MACHINE! instead of the poor me whom supposedly is her daughter and is suffering with backache due to the fall... Well...what was i hoping? words of concern? or shows of sympathy? Whatever! It is not like i'm gonna get it no matter how much i yearn for it that time..

I really don't feel like saying what has initiated me to post this today but you guys should know better that it is definitely something cuz something like 'I'm not as loved as my brother' thing happened again.. sigh..

Kay. End of my complaints and rants. Bye.

P.S: New Year Post will continue when my mood turns better....and to add to my emoing now, i'm feverish! Geez.. life is so miserable.. plus i'm going back to jungle tomorrow and stuffs.. =.="