No longer 4.0 (TT_TT)

It is the beginning of the new semester again and things have really starting to get to me. It is not time for stresses yet, but I am quite sure that I will with my previous semester's result being so well..not ideal!!! Yes, i would say that because up till now, not to boast or anything here but i have really managed to maintain my results at CGPA 4.0 since foundation. But last semester, oh god...what happened to me?! I actually got a B+ for one of my subject! Corporate Financial Reporting!!

In case you guys wonder how the grading is being awarded..here it is
A 4.0
B+ 3.5
B 3.0
C 2.5
D 2.0

Reasons/Excuses for not getting an A for CFR
1) Bad time management!!!
I didn't have enough time to finish my paper...TT_TT not to mention to check anything at all!!! The bloody paper is only 2 hours long where i would be required to answer five theory questions, prepare cash flow statement, calculations, journal entries, adjustments, financial statements and not to mention THINK!!!! There wasn't even time to think!! Sigh..but still there are humans who managed to complete everything and get an A for the subject..so me complaining here is like giving myself excuses for not doing well in the paper... It is all my fault!!

2) Nervous Breakdown D8
This is really serious... I have never in my life panicked this much for just a final exam. This time, it happened. Me, YEOH WEI SHEZ has really panicked and it nearly make me throw away my paper!! But thank god, i still have some rationale left in me to prevent me from performing an action which would cause me to lose my scholarships, retake CFR and graduate four months later than I should be! The reason for me being nervous? Well.. it just happens that the questions weren't asked in the way I expected it to be and things are just weird! There are even a question where i have completely no idea what are the answers for it! So, my mind was in a mess and I couldn't think well nor concentrate on writing down the answers. I was too busy panicking, worrying and also losing confidence....sigh

3) Careless mistakes!!
I bet this is the one big thing that cause me to lose my A! If only i did not make that mistake, the chances of me getting an A should be higher than 80%!!!!! *sobx*



After the exam, I even cried for doing badly and even prayed to get at least a 'pass'! Oh god, a 'pass' only? That is new for me. Very new. Even though I sounded disappointed with a B+ but in truth, i was quite happy when i gotten the results.. cuz i was expecting a C for CFR. lol I am just grateful that i did not sucked that bad and still manage to not stray too far from my 'first class honours' path. At the same time, i am disappointed with myself because I could have done better, but i did not...

It is all in the past now, I have learned to look forward and move forward! Well, of course occasionally i would still look back. But definitely not to sit down and cry over it again and again. Rather, i would remember my mistakes and learn from it!!

By the way, I just realized that being optimistic has a lot of upsides. Wonder why I was such a pessimist last time?? Weird.. Was I a masochist?! Do I enjoy being tortured by depression, disappointment and stuffs like that which makes me cry all the time? Gosh! Thank god I abandoned my old self! I don't want myself to be pathetic forever..*shudders even at the thoughts of it alone*

Time to sign off. Still have a few articles to read before sleeping tonight. Note that the reading I will be doing later is for the subject, Business Aspects of Management Accounting which will be taught by the same lecturer who gave me a B+ last semester. >.<