~LiFe Of A FLuFF mAsTer~

10 more days to GRADUATION!

2010-08-29T14:07:00.000+08:00

Can you believe it?! Only 10 more days!! Can't wait to start enjoying my unemployed days~ ~

A Genius? Cool!

2010-03-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

Got bored while watching The Secret of the American Teenager..an american series which talks about a girl getting pregnant at 15 after having sex once with a jerk and how she manage her life after that, and so i was surfing around and stumble across this free IQ test. Took it and you know what? My IQ is 145!! Well, according to the IQ score guide, I am actually a GENIUS and there is only less than 1% of the test takers got that! How cool is that? But still, I don't think the result is correct since they didn't take into account speed/time and there are so little questions. Whatever, just let me be optimistic and believe the result. lol

What a hell of a week!

2009-12-04T22:41:00.001+08:00

Things were kinda bad for these past few days.. I think I flunked my Business Aspects of Management Accounting paper which I have been studying quite hard for for the past two weeks.. Fall sick at the wrong time and broke the news to one of my best friend that her boyfriend is breaking up with her!! I feel damn terrible now...with my fever and stuffs to make things worse!

I actually spent the whole week in Nilai when I could actually go home during the revision week in order to study for that evil subject that had me restless for days!! In the end, when I saw the paper.. I was like..it should be fine..but NO! IT WASN'T AT ALL!! I don't have enough time at all to complete the paper!! And that guy have to pulled away my answer booklet just like that with the tip of my pen still on the paper!!! Guess what? He made me draw a HARD LONG BLUE LINE ON MY BOOKLET!!! WTH!! Can't he at least politely collects them back?? And what is wrong with giving us an additional one hour for this paper?? Everyone have been saying that the time wasn't sufficient for all these sems and they do nothing in response of this?! Stupid OBU! Stupid exam unit!! If you make me lose my scholarships, I am so gonna WRITE A HUGE COMPLAINT TO THE EXAM UNIT!! There is only two subjects for this sem, so in order to secure my scholarships.. I would need to get at least a 3.4 GPA!! How the hell would i manage to do it when this subject is so tough and stuffs??!! So not fair....TT_TT Oh and falling sick before my next paper on Monday is definitely not good for me... I couldn't study the whole day!! I can't bear to see this sem's results... It might be the worst result I ever get...

And woman, if you see this.. I am sorry that I broke the news to you in the middle of the night. I was just afraid that you might need someone to talk to bout it.. Anyway, he is a jerk and doesn't deserve you. Forget all bout him and find a better man! Don't forget, we are all here to support you! Loves you lots! >.<

Flirtatious or not?

2009-11-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

Someone said to me

"You can't get a guy if you don't flirt!"

I wonder just how much truth there is to this statement. >.<

Am hopping that this is not true cuz... i hate to admit this but I don't know how to flirt!!! More like, i don't even know what is flirting! So how am i suppose to know whether i am doing it or not?? =.=" Von said that it is in us and we just need someone to bring it out. Now now now..where is that human who is gonna make me all flirty? lol

Just a short post.. It is really time to start working on my assignment. Bye.

Friendster Vs Facebook

2009-10-19T16:14:00.001+08:00

Logged in to Friendster after god knows how many centuries it has been since the last time I do so. All I can say is that there are a lot of spams around, spam comments, spam messages and friend requests from humans I couldn't recognize at all! Haha. It failed to get a favourable attention from me even after a year or more since I last sign in! A period of one whole year (or maybe more), they could have at least come up with a tidier layout and stuffs. Whatever. I have Facebook now to keep myself entertained everyday and of course, to keep in touch with my friends~ So.. in conclusion,

Friendster Sucks! and

Facebook Rocks!

Status: Living on bread and biscuits for today. >.<

A post dedicated to Eddie Peng and Esther Liu coupling~

2009-10-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

言言 and 晏晏

1) 仙剑奇侠传 (Chinese Paladin/The Legend of Sword and Fairy)

The best one ever! They were so cute in it!! But too bad though..when they finally love each other mutually, the guy got his arms cut (he forced them off by himself-using his 内功). So no more hugging scene TT_TT.. even when they kiss in the last episodes, they can't hug each other!!! No arms!!!

2) 聊斋 2 之粉蝶
Badly dubbed by China. Seems like a low budget series. Bad storyline. 言言造型 is really ugly. Not much romance and only 6 episodes!!! *faints*

3) 协奏曲 (The Concerto)
A very nice drama!! Only in the beginning though.. Cuz 晏晏 die in the 7th episode! Nuuu!!!!! They were so so so so so sweet in the drama!!! If only it lasted till the end then I would definitely make it my No.1 favourite drama!

Can't wait to see them together again >.< They are just so so so cute!!

Found something interesting.. Their dialogues in 仙剑奇侠传..Awww..

唐钰小宝(彭于晏)阿奴(劉品言)爱情

     1.
阿奴: 唉, 我问你, 爱情是什么东西啊?
唐钰: 你不知道吗?
阿奴: 就是因为不知道, 所以才问你嘛. 你不是什么都知道吗? 大石鼓没有教过你?
唐钰: 他... 这不用人教, 这是与生俱来的本能...
阿奴: 那到底是什么?
唐钰: 是一种感觉...
阿奴: 唉呀! 你到底是懂还是在装懂嘛?
唐钰：我懂，打从我认识你那天我就懂。
阿奴：那就是，十…… (迷糊)
唐钰：十三。
阿奴：唐钰小宝，你真人小鬼大。

2.
赵灵儿：唐钰啊，真是一个不可多得的好男人。
阿奴：嗯, 他点的菜真好吃。
赵灵儿：还有呢？
阿奴：他让我欺负。
赵灵儿：还有呢？
阿奴：好吃。
赵灵儿：我指的是他对你付出的关心。
阿奴：还不算。
赵灵儿：什么，还不算？
阿奴：如果啊，有甜点吃的话才算。
伙计：已经为你们准备好了甜点甜汤，这是唐钰公子准备好的...你慢用.
阿奴: ...

3.
(在无底洞里...）
阿奴：不要，唐钰小宝，千万不要，你不要下来，这里很危险的。
唐钰：唐钰发誓，我救不到你我死不休。
...
阿奴:唐钰小宝你这个大傻瓜!
唐钰:今生无悔! 阿奴你别怕, 有我在!

4.
唐钰: 阿奴, 你还记得在无底洞你答应过我什么?
阿奴: 记得, 我要和你成亲.
唐钰: 真的? 你都记得?
阿奴: 嗯! 可是, 有没有好吃的? ....
...
唐钰: 我会让你幸福!
阿奴: 这不重要啊!
唐钰: ???
阿奴: 重要的是, 要有好吃的!
唐钰: 可是成亲不止只有吃啊...
阿奴: 这我当然知道啦, 只是除了吃以外的事, 唐钰小宝都会解决!
唐钰: 也对... (幸福地微笑)5.
(在流沙中...)
阿奴: 如果谁来救我, 我就认他作我爹....
唐钰: 就爱说一些不会兑现的疯话....
阿奴:唐钰小宝,阿奴好害怕啊!
唐钰:别怕, 如果你先走, 我就咬舌头, 马上追上来.
阿奴: 如果, 如果有来生, 我一定要嫁, 嫁给唐钰小宝...
唐钰: 傻瓜, 你这个小傻瓜....6.
阿奴：唐钰小宝.如果我们出去了.我就嫁给你. （说了无数次,没有一次兑现）
唐钰小宝：阿奴... 不要说了, 我不想习惯希望落空.7.
唐钰:你的爱和我的爱不同.
阿奴:为什么?
唐钰:你只把我当成哥哥, 搞不好, 还把我当成姐姐...可是我把你当作我的爱人.8.
阿奴: 你还没告诉我到底是什么感觉吗?
唐钰: 你真的想知道吗?
阿奴: 你说不说嘛...
唐钰: 好吧, 那你先闭上眼睛...
阿奴: 干嘛?
唐钰: 你不是想知道吗?
阿奴: 好吧!
...... ..... ......
阿奴: 你干嘛?! 你想吻人家啊?
唐钰: 我我... 你, 你不要....
阿奴：人家问你爱情是什么，你吻人家干吗呀，莫名其妙！
唐钰：......

      9.
(阿奴和唐钰一起骑马)
阿奴唱：唐钰小宝大冬瓜，唐钰小宝大傻瓜...
唐钰说：感觉不对。
阿奴很气的说：这可是我精心为你编的。
唐钰：我指这条路...

     10.
(唐钰断臂后)
阿奴: 阿奴呀, 要学习做饭, 要永永远远伺候唐钰小宝. 要永远在你的身边...
唐钰: 你呀...
阿奴: 我要嫁给你!
唐钰: 你又开玩笑了...
阿奴(跪下,拿花, 一本正经): 阿奴爱你一生一世, 你娶我吧.
唐钰: ... (笑)
阿奴: 唐钰小宝!
唐钰(假怒): 不准,再欺负, 唐钰小宝!

     11.
唐钰：够了! 你要死, 我陪你一起死！

     12.
唐钰：阿奴, 原来世上真的有天涯海角.
阿奴：是呀. 就在这里呀. 只要有爱，天涯海角就在我们心里. 我们会去那里啊?
唐钰：我们会化成比翼鸟, 生生世世都在一起...可是我失去了双臂, 没有翅膀,飞不起来...
阿奴：唐钰小宝一直以来都支持着阿奴，保护我, 照顾我, 现在该由阿奴来照顾唐钰小宝了，我带着你一起飞.
唐钰：傻瓜，带我, 你怎么飞啊.
阿奴：我们有一线牵啊.
唐钰：我已经没了有手臂,不能使用一线牵了...
阿奴：一线牵呀, 从系起到现在, 都不是用手,而是用心, 来, 让我带着你一起飞...

I especially love the part where 阿奴 says "我知道唐钰小宝是最最疼阿奴的了。" and begin rubbing her cheek with 唐钰小宝!! So cute!! Here is the picture of their cheeks brushing each others~

Shoping + Sushi-Making Day!!

2009-10-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

On the 16th of October 2009, the pretty and young mom of my cute little baby cousin, Jhih Hsuen whom is also my aunt, decided to make sushi!! She took leave or work from home (either one) and we went out to Jusco Bkt Raja to get some ingredients for the sushi and also Jhih Hsuen's new pacifier! Well, he is growing after all and it is time for him to change his old pacifier which he has been using for 6 months+++. lol I chose the cutest one for him! One with stars around it and the handle can even glow in the dark! How cute! >.<

Anyway, the usually miser-me has gone into hiding somewhere for today and thus, it brings out the spendthrift-me to replace the empty spot!!! You guys could probably guess what has happened today...yes yes yes.. I WENT SHOPPING FOR CLOTHING AGAIN!! TT_TT I wanted to start saving (again) in case I am going Singapore this year end but today, I spent the savings I saved last few weeks all in one shot! What could I do? There was sales and no girls can resist NOT checking out what the sales has to offer. lol Anyway, there was 70% discount for almost all the stuffs so I am actually paying less for the quality I get. This is called cost effectiveness. haha. Whatever, I will start saving again when i get back to Nilai. It is the best place for me to save as the place is just a mere jungle with no entertainment, no great foods and nothing interesting to spend on. =.=

When we got home, we started cutting the Japanese cucumber, carrots, hot dogs (yes, on my request..lol), avocado and potato. Then we make the glutinous rice using the powder pack we bought from Jusco by mixing the powder with the cooked rice. The process is very easy actually.. just do all the preparation work and then start rolling the sushi using the wooden-stick-stuffs to flatten and shape them into round/square/rectangular shapes as you wish! Tada! Everything is done! Just add a little wasabi to the soy sauce and you can start eating your home-made sushi while dipping into the sauce for more flavouring!

In the end, we have all forgotten to take some pictures as we were all too hungry and began savouring every single piece of sushi made even before they were put out nicely on the plates...lol That's all for today, time to do a little drama-watching~ Adios! ;)

Note to myself: SAVE MONEY!!!

晏晏和言言的床戏

2009-10-15T22:30:00.001+08:00

言言（右）和彭于晏穿卡通睡衣拍床戲很沒情調。

言言（劉品言）雖然人在法國進修上課，不過她在台視的10點檔新戲《協奏曲》引起觀眾熱烈討論，原因是「哪有女主角這麼肉」。

時下偶像劇女主角不流行辣妹美女，非得要長得平庸、身材普通，才會引起女性觀眾共鳴，不過言言原本就生得壯，加上她拍這部戲是法國留學中途軋拍，身材已經走樣，乍看之下可能有60公斤。

聽說言言之前和彭于晏拍床戲時才糗，裸露幾點不是重點，而是導演強人所難，居然要求他「抱」起她狂吻，她在痞客邦的部落格上說，「我很重，很怕他吃不消，所以拍得很卡」，彭于晏說她「有分量」，抱到差點抽筋。

Got this from some forum which I have forgotten to bookmark..lol..so I can't give credits to.. eeps..sorry!

Anyway, this 言言 here is the one that I have mentioned in my previous post. Well, she really has gained some weight but I think she looks healthy to me. Maybe cuz I am like her, or maybe fatter.. who cares. It is just appearances..(yeah right =.=) I think her body is fine, it is just that her face is a bit round....if you watch the series, you will definitely notice it. By the way, I watched the episode with their bed scene already and aww.. it is so short!! Where is all the foreplay and stuffs?! The one in 恶作剧之吻 has a much much much longer one than this. So unfair!! I have been longing to watch the two of them together since 仙剑奇侠传!!! They were so cute in there and of course, still cute in 协奏曲！They acted in 聊斋 2 之粉蝶 together and as lovers too.. but 言言 doesn't look nice in the series.. she look kind of plump (most probably cuz of her hairstyle and her thick clothing. One main thing that i want to complain is not the plumpness of her but WHERE IS ALL THE ROMANCE?!!! It was quite a boring China series which I probably would never thought of watching if they are not in it.

My current addiction ~ Eddie 彭于晏 ~

2009-10-13T14:26:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! I am ADDICTED to EDDIE PENG (彭于晏）!!!!! He is just so cute, adorable, handsome, tall, muscular, naughty, sweet and innocent looking! Aww.... I feel like melting just by the thought of him alone~~ Gosh..Haven't been feeling like that since...a few years ago? since the TVXQ era. lol Not that I being unfaithful but a girl can have a few crushes and just one true love right?! hahahahaha

Anyway, he is the cutest thing ever! I have always thought that he is good looking since I first heard and saw him on tv/newspaper. But at that time, it didn't occur to me that I will be this much in love with him!! I practically fell head over heels for him when i watch Chinese Paladin (仙剑奇侠传）. Humans who know me well would know that I have a soft spot for guys who are loyal, protective, caring, cute, tall and muscular XD And he happens to be so in the series!! The only reason why I am still watching the series is because of him and Esther Liu （刘品言）!!! They just look so cute together!! Since i can't get enough of them in that series alone..heheheh.. Time to do some research...(if only I am this passionate about my assignment =.=")

So, I stumble across interesting stuffs! They actually worked together in some other dramas too!! What's more.. THEY ARE LOVERS IN ALL THOSE DRAMAS!! Not that much, but still at least there are some. They acted in The Concerto (协奏曲) and 聊斋之粉蝶。 I haven't watch the latter one but am currently watching The Concerto and WTF!

Why am i cursing when they are acting as a loving couple in it? If it is not about the actor, it is about the storyline!!! WTH!! They make him die in the 7th episode! For god's sake! Almost everyone watch that drama because of him and some because of him and the girl, and this stupid idiotic director/company/whichever human decided to make him die in the 7th episode!!! The series is 23 or 24 episodes long and he is only acting like less than one third of the series?! Come on, who could stand watching the another two third of the dramas when of course the main attraction is gone!! I couldn't! I definitely couldn't! I am either too pissed off or too turned off to watch the remaining episodes. Found out the reasons why he was treated like this... All because he didn't want to continue his contract with his artist management company and they decided to rob him off of his lead role in The Concerto. Since the news is already out that he will be the cast of the series, there is no way that the fans would just sit quiet and accept the fact, so, he is still going to be in the dramas. Just that, he couldn't enjoy much from it. He dies early in the drama, leaving behind his pregnant wife/lover, has a fighting scene (more like being-whacked-scene), fall into the river and walk in the rain.

Sigh, it is always like this. Why couldn't I just fall in love with the lead roles?? Why always the sad, second lead role or just some sidekicks?!!! This is so unfair!!! This is my very very very very strong reasons for not being able to finish watching MOST of the recent dramas. It is just too sad to see the characters you like to not end up with the girl of their dream! It is just too sad that they die so fast that when you blink your eyes, they are gone! GAH!!!

Some of his pictures~ Btw, he is 182 or 183 cm tall >.< !!!!

How I wish he could smile like that to me....*melts*

I am looking good!

2009-10-08T21:34:00.000+08:00

Met Ms Shanti while on my way to the lab today. I was very excited to see her! She is afterall, the first lecturer who manage to instill fear and respect in me..lol.. She is strict and smart and I love her for being so! Apparently, I love almost all of the female indian lecturers that have taught me before. Like Ms Shanti, Ms Usha, Ms Seetha and Ms Gita.

Anyway, she was saying that I am looking good and asked me whether I got myself a boyfriend? lol. Because she said, usually people are looking good when they got a BF and I am already looking good even when I am still single. lol

Her words make my day~ A joyous day~~ lalalalala

Missing my baby cousin, Jhih Hsuen~

2009-10-08T11:03:00.002+08:00

Yesh! Tomorrow is Friday and why do I love Friday so much? Simple! It is time to go home and meet my little baby cousin, Jhih Hsuen! Oh gosh..he is the cutest baby in the whole wide world! Miss snuggling, smooching, playing, hugging and talking to him! He should be around 6 months a two weeks old now.. Can't wait for him to learn how to walk and talk~~ Aww... that would be so so so cute!

Before Jhih Hsuen was born, I kinda like hated babies cuz they keep on crying and crying and crying which is sometimes damn annoying! I even thought of not giving birth in the future =X But now, babies are like the cutest thing on earth! They make the cutest noises, give you their sweetest most innocent smile and they put out their arms for you whenever you go near one....Aww...I love Jhih Hsuen(specifically him only, other babies..still not that fond of..cuz they are all not as cute, smart, adorable as my Jhih Hsuen! We are cousins of 20 years difference >.< I feel so old!!

Oh yeah, my aunt is really pretty and she definitely look much younger than her actual age. Everyone around me was shocked to see her picture. If she goes around telling people that she is only 20, no one would doubt it at all. Not even a little. Yes, she is that young looking! Me and my aunt, we are like sisters~ That may be because we are only 9 years apart and we spent most of the time together since FOREVER! lol She played with me when i was still a baby, we went to school on the same bus (I go to kindergarten while she goes to secondary school.lol), tutor me when i was in primary school, have a little cat fights from time to time, share our secrets, problems and almost every little thing!

Gosh, i really love her. She is the best aunt in the world! and her baby, Jhih Hsuen, is the cutest baby on earth! Family bonds are really really very important in human life. Family members are the ones whom would always be by your side, the ones who give you genuine unconditional love and care, console you when you are sad, be happy for you when you have done well in anything, support you even though the world seems to have turn its back on you, listen to all your little rants, nags, problems and stuffs, try to help you in any ways they could and many many more!

Aww... I missed them all even more now...TT_TT
Love you Grandma, my little bro, Mom and Dad, grandpa and uncles! *hugs and kisses*

Anyway, looking forward to tomorrow and the first thing that I am gonna do when i reach home would be........LOOK FOR JHIH HSUEN!! lol

No longer 4.0 (TT_TT)

2009-10-07T16:39:00.004+08:00

It is the beginning of the new semester again and things have really starting to get to me. It is not time for stresses yet, but I am quite sure that I will with my previous semester's result being so well..not ideal!!! Yes, i would say that because up till now, not to boast or anything here but i have really managed to maintain my results at CGPA 4.0 since foundation. But last semester, oh god...what happened to me?! I actually got a B+ for one of my subject! Corporate Financial Reporting!!

In case you guys wonder how the grading is being awarded..here it is
A 4.0
B+ 3.5
B 3.0
C 2.5
D 2.0

Reasons/Excuses for not getting an A for CFR
1) Bad time management!!!
I didn't have enough time to finish my paper...TT_TT not to mention to check anything at all!!! The bloody paper is only 2 hours long where i would be required to answer five theory questions, prepare cash flow statement, calculations, journal entries, adjustments, financial statements and not to mention THINK!!!! There wasn't even time to think!! Sigh..but still there are humans who managed to complete everything and get an A for the subject..so me complaining here is like giving myself excuses for not doing well in the paper... It is all my fault!!

2) Nervous Breakdown D8
This is really serious... I have never in my life panicked this much for just a final exam. This time, it happened. Me, YEOH WEI SHEZ has really panicked and it nearly make me throw away my paper!! But thank god, i still have some rationale left in me to prevent me from performing an action which would cause me to lose my scholarships, retake CFR and graduate four months later than I should be! The reason for me being nervous? Well.. it just happens that the questions weren't asked in the way I expected it to be and things are just weird! There are even a question where i have completely no idea what are the answers for it! So, my mind was in a mess and I couldn't think well nor concentrate on writing down the answers. I was too busy panicking, worrying and also losing confidence....sigh

3) Careless mistakes!!
I bet this is the one big thing that cause me to lose my A! If only i did not make that mistake, the chances of me getting an A should be higher than 80%!!!!! *sobx*

After the exam, I even cried for doing badly and even prayed to get at least a 'pass'! Oh god, a 'pass' only? That is new for me. Very new. Even though I sounded disappointed with a B+ but in truth, i was quite happy when i gotten the results.. cuz i was expecting a C for CFR. lol I am just grateful that i did not sucked that bad and still manage to not stray too far from my 'first class honours' path. At the same time, i am disappointed with myself because I could have done better, but i did not...

It is all in the past now, I have learned to look forward and move forward! Well, of course occasionally i would still look back. But definitely not to sit down and cry over it again and again. Rather, i would remember my mistakes and learn from it!!

By the way, I just realized that being optimistic has a lot of upsides. Wonder why I was such a pessimist last time?? Weird.. Was I a masochist?! Do I enjoy being tortured by depression, disappointment and stuffs like that which makes me cry all the time? Gosh! Thank god I abandoned my old self! I don't want myself to be pathetic forever..*shudders even at the thoughts of it alone*

Time to sign off. Still have a few articles to read before sleeping tonight. Note that the reading I will be doing later is for the subject, Business Aspects of Management Accounting which will be taught by the same lecturer who gave me a B+ last semester. >.<

5th October ~A Special Day for me~

2009-10-06T12:15:00.000+08:00

Well well well, it has been centuries since I last updated my blog.. Although everyone was complaining that my blog is dead.. I seriously don't have the mood to post anything, anything at all. Last two sems were hectic, line is extremely slow and sometimes i couldn't connect (Yes, blame the NUC internet connection!!), near-depression and stuffs like that were the reasons or excuses that I could think of to make up for my 7 months of MIAing.. lol

Anyway, yesterday was my birthday, 5th of October~~ So..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!

Celebrated it with my lovely collegemates the whole night! Right up to 12.00am of 6/10/09~ lol There were dinner, cake cutting, poker cards playing, truth or dare and chitchats all the night~

Now here is the namelist of all the humans and non humans that have wished me on my b'day... I would like to thank all of you for being so sweet~~~

Gun, Ee Von, Lysa, Audrey, Yew Bond, Wai Zen, Mom, Benoit, Xue Fen, Loon Yang, QQ, Hui Yee, William, Fang Wei, Evelyn, Hong Rui, Angeline, Eddie, Kuan Hee, Ken Ken, Miky, Siu Mun, Yee Mun, Keen Mun, Ah Leow, Hui Yan, Ranee, Pei San, Jessica, Yue Zhen, Sim Yee, Suki, Vics Tan, Yee Hoe, Sook Yee, Wei Li, Julian, Denise, Terrence, Sien Tzong, Cheau Shin, Chier Yen, April, Kean Seng, Hema, Wing, Vi Jun, Siew Yan, Shin Bei, Nicholas, Micky Tan, Ah Woon, Wei Ken, Jia Ling, Sam, Anrie, Rayray, Kong Tzing, Cappy, Ming Hui, Jeannie, Yuk Ling, Sonia, Navin, Hermione, Burger, Yog Hanz Arumugam, Nicole, Jason, Lina, Kelvin, May, Michelle and others ( I am sorry i couldnt't remember everyone..eeps>.<)

Thanks guys for all the pressies and the wishes!! Love them all~~~

I thought i would be alone this birthday since nearly all my best friends are either overseas for studies, working or studying somewhere far away.. But thanks to my collegemates, I am able to have a birthday celebration this year~~ Sankyuu!!

P.S. Sadly, Leng didn't manage to wish me.. was kinda upset bout it.. But it is probably my fault since I wasn't around when she were looking for me on msn yesterday.. TT_TT

Giving Up...

2009-03-30T20:40:00.000+08:00

I have finally
-lost to the big piles of assignments and deadlines
-lost the once confidence me
-lost the strength to carry on
-felt that I am not as strong as I thought I am
-felt like giving up for real
-felt that I could not handle all the stresses that fall upon of me
-broke down and let my tears fall uncontrollably
-broke down and let myself fall into the well of depression

I NEED
-to go back home
-to have a BREAK from everything
-to have a good night sleep
-to have more time to complete my assignments

-to have more love and support from my family and friends

-to regain my confidence

I hope

-that everything will be over soon

-that everything is gonna end up well

-that all my efforts are not put to waste

-that I would not fall sick before the war ends

-that God would give me strength to carry on

God, please end my sufferings and shower me with love, joy and happiness....

Bye.

Last semester result!

2009-03-20T11:57:00.000+08:00

Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

I'm so god damn HAPPY!!

I have finally gotten my REAL last semester result!

It was so freaking scary cuz I heard that stupid and evil OBU was going to reduce our marks by 1.75% for Business Communication!!

That's why i freaked out!! I only get like 70.5 marks for that subject!!! Seriously 'atas pagar', meaning..on the fence.

I would be like 69.27 after the deduction of marks!!! A B+ for god's sake!! Nu!!!

Thank god.. Ms. Seetha, being the kind and generous her, she had upgraded my marks to 71 before submitting to OBU..hehehe.. this means, even after OBU reduce my marks..it is still 70 after rounding up the figures!!!!

Here are the marks that I obtained for my papers last semester~

U52004 Business Economics [A] (71 marks)

U51003 Business Communications [A] (70 marks)

U50010 Foundations of Financial Accounting [A] (95 marks)

U51004 Business Information Skills [A] (90 marks)

My cumulative credit points is 24.0 for 6 total subjects taken

As for my cumulative grade point average..hehe...of course it is 4.0!!!

Yesh!! I managed to secure my Four Flat Record!! Meaning..getting A for every single subject up to now!! Have been keeping this since foundation...

But...things are going to be tough soon...with the changing of 80 marks and above for A...

It is just so impossible to get 80 marks when 70 is already so hard to get!!

Sigh.. Forget it.. I will do my very best each semester and just accept whatever results I get.

Heheh..Guys, wish me luck in keeping my record!!!

Well then.. enough of my boastful post... Gotta go do my assignments..

~Bye~

Law and Financial Report....

2009-03-18T02:10:00.000+08:00

Recently, I have been tortured by both the law and financial report assignment... Life has been really hectic with all the assignments deadline so near to each other!!

Financial Report - 50%

Law (Group) Assignment - 30%

Gah! I noticed that I have grumble and complain bout my assignments several times...but it seriously has AFFECTED my life!!!

I couldn't go home during weekend and I don't have much time to watch dramas!!

I missed the old days where I can do my assignments and watch dramas at the same time...

Guess..degree is much much tougher than foundation~

Once I finished up all my assignments..heheheh... I'm so gonna plan some outings and yc session with my friends!

ENJOY MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!

*sigh*

Gtg now..need to finish reading some stuffs before sleeping or else it would never get done on time!

Get to know yourself better~

2009-03-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

A very good psychological test which enables you to get to know yourself better~

I got this from my evil collegemate, Ruionkoh and since it seems kinda accurate...for him.. I decided to take it as well and see if it is really that accurate!

Kay then..let's see what I have got~

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
Hmm... There are people that find me very interesting...but I don't think i'm hiding my true self though.
In fact, those that think that i'm interesting are the ones that I need not pretend at all or even hold my tongue while being with them. They love me for who I am and the same goes for me as well~~ (Yes! Am hinting you guys! Leng,Von,Gun,Audrey and Lysa)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Totally Agree!!
For those that thinks that i am looking for a very handsome/cute guy as my boyfriend, you guys are so wrong! I admit I always fall head over heels with SINGERS and ACTORS that are really handsome looking..but it is just the fangirlism thingy in me... lol
In real life, i had rather choose one that loves me lots, dotes on me, serious, smart, determined and considerate person.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might(i think it is a typo..should be meet) that person.
Agree.
Which is why I'm still single until now~ Waiting for the right one... As for whether I will know right away is doubtful..cuz I may be quite blur in this...lol

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Totally Agree!
Like I said..this is why i'm still single!

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
Agree
Without education, you can practically do nothing much in this society and be unrespectable..

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
O.O I'm shocked! It is so true!
I seriously don't know which one i should choose...argh!!

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
Agree!
For me, love is more important than career. This does not mean that I do not care a thing bout my career. It is just that.. I don't think i would be those kind of women who would abandon their family all the time just for work.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Kinda true.
I'm afraid of being alone... I need to be more independent...or else I would never really grow up into a real adult.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Agree.
I'm always in a dilemmas which require answers from my heart... Always...

Well then, that's all for my result from the test. I think it is pretty much accurate for me.

For anyone that is interested, you can go here to take the test~

Gotta run. Need to do some revision before I jump into the bed~

[NEWS] TVXQ's 3rd Asia Tour MIROTIC Concert has 4 Billion Won Effects! + TVXQ's concert Petition

2009-03-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

The 3rd live tour concert of Asia top group Dong Bang Shin Ki is expected to earn at least 4 billion won from fans from foreign countries.

It’s not about the money that will be earn through the concert alone, but to the economy in general.

As already scheduled, TVXQ’s 3 days concert in South Korea at Seoul Olympic Park Gymnastics Stadium will kick off today on 20th February to 22nd February before they’re heading to other Asian countries on the list namely Beijing, Shanghai, Bangkok, Taipei, etc with total 12 performances all over Asia.

TVXQ’s Korea concert, which was already sold out only few minutes after the ticket selling opened, will not only be attended by their Korean fans. It is confirmed that about 2000 foreign Asian fans attending comes from Japan, China, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Singapore, Thailand, Malaysia, Vietnam.

These numbers are dominated by Japanese fans, as explained by some hotel managers that they weren’t able to handle all room bookings by Japanese guests who were mostly coming to see TVXQ’s concert, made most hotels around concert area are already fully-booked at around the concert date.

This highly anticipated concert can be seen through due to the concert held during weekends, when most people have their free time and due to the popularity of TVXQ’s 4th album MIROTIC which had been at top popular charts of many asian countries such as Korea, Japan, Taiwan, and Thailand. Thus, it’s increasing the fans’ curiosity to see TVXQ’s starting point concert in the boys’ very own home country.

Economy experts said that the foreign country fans had to at least spend ₩ 2,000,000 per person which made it ₩ 4,000,000,000 in total for 3 days and 2 night hotel charges, concert tickets, plane tickets, other accomodation, transportation, phone charge, and not mention the official concert goodies that will be sold during the concert days such as t-shirts, cookies, stamps, etc.

Source: Newsen + News24News
Written by: Sharing Yoochun

Shared By: SakuraMint

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TVXQ Petition!!

I'm so gonna sign this petition and get my beloved TVXQ to include Malaysia in their 3rd Asia Tour Concert!!! I haven't been seeing them (in person) since 2007!!! Two years already and SM Entertainment still doesn't want to include Malaysia in their tour! It is not like they come here every now and then for fanmeeting session, autograph session or some other promotional activities. Sad...

Miracle..

2009-03-02T19:39:00.001+08:00

I freaking need it right now!!

What do I need?

A miracle!!

Now, what kind of miracle do I wish for?..

It is none other than waking up tomorrow morning to find that I have FINISHED DOING ALL MY ASSIGNMENTS both PERFECTLY AND ACCURATELY in just one night!!!!

I bet all my friends who are right in their mind would agrees with me that this is the best miracle that could ever happen to them for now (minus those nerds and weirdos)

Sigh..

Everyone is drowning in a HUGE pile of assignments.

And

As for me..

*dies*

Gotta ciao for group discussion and may GOD BLESS ALL OF US....

Rantz, mousehunt and congratulatory notes~

2009-02-24T15:06:00.000+08:00

I know it has been quite some time since i last posted....but I'm just damn LAZY to update my blog on every single event that has took place in my life!!!

I'm demotivated most of the time this month because of A HUGE PILE OF ASSIGNMENTS WAITING TO LAND ON ME or has it landed?? sigh...

The due dates are all so near to each other!!! I'm gonna die in the month of March... 5 assignments to be handed in by late March or early April. It doesn't make any difference anyway, it is only like 3 or 4 days differences in handing in those assignments. ARGH!! I wonder will this sem be my doom sem??! Meaning, am i going to give up on doing the assignments as perfect as possible and just hand in some CACATED ones to the lecturers?!!

Nevermind me...i'm just trying to destress myself through yelling (in blog though). haha.

Anyway, just a reminder to myself...
--->Klang outing with XF, William and LY (P.S. LY!!! Where is the pictures?!!)

By the way, I am so in love with mousehunting!! (Mousehunt - an application in facebook!)

It is so fun to hunt all types of mouse there.. basically, you just set up your traps and buy some cheese as baits. Then, you wait for the mouse to strike and tada! you caught a mouse! or maybe not..lol This is not a game where you sit down and stare at the screen 24/7. You can either come back every 15 minutes to sound the horn for hunting or just come back whenever you like and check your traps~

Since i abandoned the Crazy Pet Society which I used to be in love with....due to HIGH INFLATION RATE!! All the items are so bloody expensive and I don't feel like hanging around in forum to do business...I just decided to quit playing it and move on to the other not so materialistic applications~ Mousehunt!

Congratulatory Notes to..
1) Audrey > Congrats on making it to Addie safe and sound!! And of course, make lots of cool friends and get to visit all those pretty places with pretty boys (yes! i'm talking bout the beach! >.<)

2) Ee Von > Congrats on getting yourself the job that you have always wanted! Eventhough the intake is still unconfirmed, at least you are on top of their priority list!! Be happy!! It IS your dream job~

3) Myself > For being able to bid goodbye to the old crybaby-me. Be happy for me!

That's all for now.. Will post again whenever I feels like it. BYE!

It is so hard to say goodbye...

2009-02-07T01:03:00.000+08:00

Before anyone start reading this post, this post actually dated back to 6th of February, 2009 but i'm only publishing it now(13 of February, 2009)..

The reason why i posted this now was because I don't want my dear friend to feel unhappy when she absolutely should be happy going overseas to study! lol..

So, since she has left.. i decided to post this cuz I don't wanna leave it in my dashboard unpublished.

This post is full of memories...so... just post lar!

The post begins right here!

Seriously.. i meant what i said for this post's title! I never know it was this hard to say goodbye to anyone! Audrey is leaving for Australia so soon that I couldn't believe it happening! We have become so so so close after all these years and now she is leaving?!! Oh god... that is just sad... Six years of friendship isn't easy especially when we are all in different colleges and still manage to stay at the 'close friends' stage.

I really love and enjoy ALL the moments that we spent with each other.

Like the time when we were in centro's sushi king.. we sat there chatting and eating for FOUR LONG HOURS! haha.. until the waitress STOPPED refilling our green tea! lol..

And the times where we were in Osaka, the food was great, we shared all the food and have some great chats there! oh yeah..minus the cockroach that suddenly appeared by the window..swt.

The sleepovers...at my place, leng's place and also Audrey's place. It was fun.. i should have done it earlier if i know i'm gonna miss all these now that she is leaving...

I don't know why but all the memories seem to have come back to me ALL AT ONCE! I remember the times when we are all still in BeeKay.. where we would gather outside of 3 Amanah to chat every single day! It was awesome!

The times where we came to school on the last day of school to find that 3A has been changed into store room with lots of chairs and tables inside? We scribbled on the blackboard!! lol.. It was damn funny!

I think there was also once where we all hide in 3A or 4Sc1 during Teacher's Day cuz we were not supposed to be in the classrooms when everyone is celebrating the event out at the Perhimpunan! haha.. We did! But too bad..WE WERE SPOTTED! Stupid us, we actually locked the door from the inside!! If there is no one in the classroom, it would either be locked from the outside or not locked at all! Locked from the inside kinda gives us out..haha

We even formed Glaring Dream (GD) in GaiaOnline..lol with Leng being the captain! haha.. We chatted so much in the forum using many many different accounts! I think each of us have at least 3 accounts! lol. Still remember the Takanori Ito's lab and his lame research, picture posting thread, yaoi thread of mine and much much more!!

Our last meeting with Audrey(6th February 2009)

We went Sushi Zanmai for a get-together and also for Cappy's farewell gathering. It was fun cuz I met a few nice people there like Mitts, Reno, Cappy and Elan there! lol They are all either cute, sweet, funny or just plainly adorable~~

We had soba, udon, lots of maki and SAKE!! OMG! I tasted sake and it taste horrible!! Well, nevermind that..i only took a sip.. a real small one..haha.

Only when it was towards the end, the reality suddenly hits me! Audrey is leaving!! Oh gosh.. I was quite sad..and damn scared that I will breakdown into tears there in public and right in front of everyone!

Thank god Leng was there and she noticed it... this girl tried to make me laugh by patting me on the back with her file instead of hands which most human in this world would do! haha.. She did well i suppose.. I manage to hold back and gain my composition a few minutes later!

After settling the bill, we walked over to the purikura corner and were so close to getting it!! But..we didn't make it in time and you see..it is closed! or rather...the lady there ignore us and put a CLOSED sign there when she is obviously there to at least change a few tokens for us! Evil fella!

Btw, purikura is the stickers thingy which you take with a machine...the one which is super duper expensive for its size (it is so bloody small and it cost RM 27!!)

So, we took a few WHOLE BIG GROUP pictures using Cappy's and Maki's camera~I think there were around 20 of us!

Next we went to the arcade, A&W for root beer and toilet (yes i know it is ridiculous but we really did went in there together! Btw, the hand dryer was shocking! It requires us to put our hand in it and WHOOSH! Cold air blowing HARD at your hand! haha).

Later, Audrey was so kind to send me home even though it was troublesome...Hey girl, I'm thankful here! >.<

It was when we send Leng home that I start feeling it again... I just can't believe it!! So soon!! Right before i got down from the car, i hugged her a bit from the backseat and waves goodbye.

It was a bit hard for me to utter the word 'Bye' to her..but i still did it or else i wouldn't have the chance to do it anymore.. in person.

At least, we hugged, hanged out, chatted, camwhored and attended few events together~~

Sigh...I should really really be happy for her since she wanted to go there very much and it is definitely a good experience for her, studying overseas. I just hope that she would enjoy herself in Adelaide. Stay healthy, safe, happy, trouble-free, stress-free, natural disaster-free, hentai-free, and and other bad stuffs-free and happy stuffs-ful there!!! Aww...girl, gonna MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH!!! *huggles*

PS. I wrote this quite some time ago before Audrey left... I finally have the courage to post it today now that i'm kinda like over the 'a bit sad' period~ haha..

Lastly... Audrey, GO ROCK ADDIE and come back with souvenirs for us!! lol

Evil Gun's house visit~

2009-02-06T14:09:00.000+08:00

The three of us girls (Me, Ee Von and Leng) plus Yew Bond went over to Gun's house for a visit during Chinese New Year. It is my first time going to his place even though i have known him for 13 years!!! lol His house is located in Setia EcoPark, where visitors have a high level of difficulty to get in! They have to get your IC, state purpose, call the owner of the house and ask if you are expecting such such such person and finally give you a HUGE visitor pass! But we escape all of those cuz Gun drove us there..and since he is a resident there, well.. he just drive in smoothly~ lol

We made some coffee using his weird coffeemaker, i called it weird cuz I have never seen something like it. There were many different types of coffee, from mild to real strong...all in different colours! So colourful~~

Later, we explored the whole house..kinda.. it was cool and i love the lightings!! Oh yeah, and i found out that Gun has a GIGANTIC wardrobe! He actually has three or four times more clothes than me!!

Snap some photos while we are there~

Taken while i was playing wii...by evil Gun..

I snapped his instead....but it wasn't ugly..sad

WTH!

Yeahlar.. act like a tough guy

Gun destroyed the picture!!! What an expression..*glares*

Yew Bond and Ee Von.. (it rhymes?)

We played twister!!! It was so bloody torturing!!

Gun invaded my territory!!

Leng....what a pose! lol

He managed to carry me.. I'm actually impressed! Since i'm heavy..lol

I carried Leng for around 5 to 10 seconds??

More pictures from playing the twister game.

Well.. i wonder when will be the next time the four of us gonna hang out together...sigh.. We really enjoy each other's company....

Btw, i met Ee Von on ktm last thursday and guess what?! We were both so excited cuz this has never happened to us before!! We chatted happily and were like "OMG, I'm still shocked to see you here and I couldn't believe it!" You must have thought that we are crazy or something but we are just happy to see each other~ Aww...

Wei Ling's bday celebration~

2009-02-01T14:53:00.000+08:00

We celebrated Leng's birthday on the 17th of January 2009, 5 days before her birthday actually...which is on the 22nd of January!! Why do i take so long to post? Well..the reason is simple..it is because the certain someone who is having the photos did not pass it to me until today?! lol...since she was the birthday girl...I forgive her! Yes dear, i forgive you! Bwahahaha

Anyway, we went to Seoul Garden at One Utama for lunch after wandering around for quite some time trying to decide which restaurant to go to..haha.. Again..We are always so indecisive!! Next time, we must plan out where to go and what to do early! haha

Now, about Seoul Garden.. it is a korean bbq+steamboat restaurant.. Not much choice of food i would say.. all i remember was chicken chicken and chicken! haha.. they have all kinds of chicken! BBQ, Garlic, Coffee and some others which i can't remember..lol.. Don't blame me.. I don't have good memory skill anymore..swt...

We took quite some pictures AFTER we finish eating our first round! lol... we were all too hungry to remember to take pics of the food...and this includes our cute little Ee Von XD She actually forgotten bout snapping photos and dig in the processed food we took..lol..so cute!

Now.. pictures time! Haha.. My post don't usually have pictures though...This post is special! Btw, the pictures are not in order cuz i uploaded it the wrong way..swt Nevermind this, pay attention guys... Pictures spree!!

TADA!
The birthday girl, Leng!

Cute Ee Von~

The Devilish and Angelic Gun~ haha...He can be evil and kind at the same time..lol
And..this is me! haha..

Oh my... look at the childish side of Gun!! haha so funny!

Our dessert!! (told you the photos aren't in order...sorry)

Ee Von posing with her ice kacang

Ee Von's and Gun's ice kacang.. (fyi, mine and leng's melted..so it is in liquid format..no pictures taken i think)

Look how cute they look~ aww.. both sharing the same bowl.. *hints hints*

Me and Leng with our ice kacang~ (before it melted!)

Wow.. gun, you looked so serious wei..

Ee Von here is trying to glare!! and it turns out she still look so cute!

Birthday girl looking all pretty here~

Ee Von ALERT!!

LENG ALERT!!!!!!

OMG! What on earth happened?! Leng acting cute?! Swt... actually, ee von forced her to do this peace thingy.. haha.. good job ee von! Now she is going to remember this for life!

Both me and leng doing the assigned pose by the Almighty Ee Von.. O.O We left gun out! He didn't do any cute pose!! Beware..next time, i will make you do embarasing pose!! bwahahaha

Me and leng again..cuz we sit together..haha..Best friend for life.

Leng's glare kills while Ee Von's make me laugh! she just can't glare...lol

Ee Von came over and we have our three girls pic again! Sorry Gun, you are always left out in our pic...should have forced the waiter to help us take a complete group photo)

Gun annoyed and Ee Von attacks!!

I was supposed to act that i'm scared but i failed...i ended up looking like "Are you crazy?" haha..

She just loves taking photos.. and that is why she is so cute!

I wonder what she was doing...staring at her chopsticks like that..

Candid! Leng took it when i turned to her!! What a good timing..the photo is so clear!

Those two again... It is kinda amusing looking at the two of them~

Almost finish~

Ending pic~ The nicest picture of the day! Once again, Gun is holding the camera..so he is not inside...swt

I will always remember the times we spend together... it won't be long before everyone left to pursue their dreams, careers and studies somewhere far... Gun is leaving for UK this coming September, Ee Von is leaving for ClubMed in Terengganu or Dubai and Leng is going to Singapore to study...sigh... I'm the only one stuck in Malaysia.. sigh..

Btw, I'M SO SORRY GUN!!! WE DIDN'T CELEBRATED YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!! I must admit that i'm evil for not celebrating it with you....so sorry... if you don't mind, we could find a day and
we would all make it up for you... >.<

Anyway...gun, leng and ee von...promise me that you guys will keep in touch with me eventhough you all are far away from me!! Don't y0u guys dare go MIA!! haha... Facebook, MSN or SKYPE whatever, as long as i still hear from you guys!

Time to end the post... it is getting late now... gonna sleep soon.

I hope there will be more entries of us four doing memorable stuffs together! That's all for now..Ciao!

CNY + Xue Fen's Bday!

2009-01-25T23:35:00.001+08:00

It is going to be New Year soon.. in less than half an hour~ Yippee!!! Chinese New Year is such an important celebration for the Cinas everywhere in the whole wide world! I personally, luvvvvvvvvvvvssss CNY the most!! I get to receive ang pows (red packets with $$ inside), eat nice nice cookies, eat nice nice food (which only appears on the dining table once or at most twice a year..lol) and lastly, i have the excuse to shop for NEW and MORE apparels and accessories!!

I would like to say that... CNY is NOT OVERRATED! It IS supposed to be GRAND for every single year!! Hohoho.. I'm just too excited for it.. Just finished praying and burning the incense.. now...i'm just waiting for 12 o'clock and TADA! food is available for CONSUMPTION!! hahaha

After eating, i'm gonna continue the gambling session and let everything digest for a while before going back home to sleep.. By the way, I'm at my grandma's house now.. it is the central where all my aunts and uncles gathered and pray and most importantly, celebrate CNY together!!

Hmm.. i wonder what will i wear tomorrow....hmm... leave that for later.. i could never make i my mind on what to wear on the FIRST day of CNY every year!! I'm so gonna change the undecisiveness of me by the end of this year...if possible..haha

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Next is....the birthday post for one of my best group members!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to GAN XUE FEN!!

I know your birthday is on 25th of January.. and it is going to be 26th soon....but I think you won't mind even if it is a few minutes late or something right?

Anyway, i wish you have a wonderful and blissful birthday this year, my dear dear friend.. lol

Lastly, a few pictures exclusively for you!

Love it? I bet you do! Love me? I hope so! Love Jay Chou? Definitely! Love this post? Maybe? lol

Just wanna let you know that i really treasure you as a friend.. Friends Forever~

OMG.... I took 2 hours to post this!! All cuz i was gambling, praying, cleaning and stuffs while posting this... paiseh..haha.. Nyway, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR GUYS!!!

What happened to faith?!

2009-01-12T08:22:00.000+08:00

Why can't my parents have more faith in me? Why would they think that I LIED to them when I obviously DID NOT? How could they doubt me of all people? How could they not understand their OWN daughter?

I'm just disappointed at the fact they doubted what I said and even go all the way to do some checkup on me in order to confirm my words. After all these years, have I ever done anything that need worrying? Have I ever LIED in such matters? Doesn't my clean record proves ANYTHING at all to you guys? Why DOUBT ME and even to the extent of FINDING EVIDENCE to back up my words! This is just too much!

I was really happy to share everything that happened in my life with them but what do i get in return? Just doubts and restrictions! I know the limits and I know very well what to do and what NOT to do.. I'm no longer the small little girl who doesn't get how dangerous the world may be. Please, all i ask for is a little bit faith in me. I know myself. I share because I care.. and because I love.

Now, don't blame me if grandma knows more about my life than you guys. It is simply because, I don't know whether I should tell you all every single detail of my life and get doubted again! Grandma trusted me and why can't you guys do the same?! Is it that hard?

After this, I'm sure that I would keep most of the things to myself whenever they are around. Not all things are meant to be shared anyway. Not anymore. Besides, all they care about would be "Am i still the top in the class? or Am i scoring As in my finals? or Am I still maintaining my scholarship?" This is the reason why I was upset when I gotten my SPM results in 2006... My mom definitely expected 10A1s from her bright daughter but I'm so sorry that I didn't get it...All I managed to get was 8A1s and 2A2s. I was so sad till i nearly cried in the hall till my friend's mom had to console me. At that time, I was sad that my results weren't as expected but I didn't know my mom will deliver the final blow.. I called her up to tell her my results and all she said was "Har? Why like that one? Why the result so BAD one?!" I did all my best and was waiting for her to console my aching heart...but instead she just breaks my heart. Well, that is in the past now.. I really should dispose this memory away.

The reason for me posting this up was because I was really sad and disappointed at their behaviour. Now that they have the proof that i'm not lying, i hope it would make them to trust me a little bit more in the future.....

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Btw, to a certain friend of mine in college.. I was really happy that you went through all the trouble to explain things out to me. I was happy that you care about my feelings and are afraid that I might get the wrong idea.. which in the end always get myself hurt for trivial stuffs. Others might think that it is just a small matter but you didn't...A little bit more words of assurance is what I seek in people close to me... You were always the one assuring me that everything is fine..Eventhough I did not show or tell anyone, but I am really grateful to you... You really are a true friend....Thanks for everything....

TAGGED!!

2009-01-08T11:42:00.000+08:00

I'm tagged?? Well.. i think so.. looking at Maki's blog..haha. First time being tagged.. so let's see how this thing works then..

Rules:
*this tag is open for both sex*

*be honest

*it must be true

*must tag 5 people

*no tagging back

What is your favourite colour?

Hmm.. I like purple, pink and white most of the time.. Now, why do i say most of the time.. simple.. because certain pink or purple looks ugly!!! I prefer light purple or light pink or a combination of both will be the best! That explains why i chose a purplish-pinkish elephant keychain(souvenirs from Ruionkoh from Thailand) out a bunch of weird colours~ lol.

What is your favourite food?

I like sweet stuffs! So cakes and chocolates are my favourites! Sweet sweet sweet!!!! But recently i have been thirsting for spaghetti.. more like carbonara.. i don't know why i kept wanting to eat it since last week!! So someone, take me out to anywhere that have carbonara!!

What is your favourite drink?

Soya Bean! This is why i was called a soya girl when i was in secondary school! lol I still remember my ex-ambition...to own a factory manufacturing soya milk and be more famous than that Yeo's company.. Btw, my surname is Yeoh! lol

What kind of girl/guy do you prefer? *more than 1 answer

Someone who's tall(cuz i'm quite tall-165cm), a gentleman, smart, funny, considerate, sensitive to my feelings, romantic, knows how to make plans for the future and a bit muscular would be better.

How do you want your crush to confess that he likes you? *more than 1 answer

Well... I don't mind how he do it as long as it is not through sms, internet or phone calls. But still, a touch of romance and creativity is always the best.. makes it more memorable.. hehe...

What do you want your boyfriend/girlfriend to give during Valentine's day?

Couple's accessories! lol.. I think it would be cute to have accessories in common while going out on a date or something... Other than that, it would probably be something that i really really like or want...since that changes over time.. i'm not gonna specify things out.lol

Umm...Am i suppose to tag anyone?? Then.... I tag...Waninoko!

I took a 4 hours long nap cuz there weren't any classes at all after 10am...well, mainly cuz the critical thinking class was cancelled (sort of, she hinted very obviously saying that i won't be teaching tomorrow and I won't take attendance so....), but this won't be for long cuz looking at the amount of courseworks i would have to drown myself in for this semester...sigh..

U50021 Understanding Financial Reports 50% coursework 50% finals

U51000 Critical Thinking 100% coursework

U51063 Business Law 100% coursework

U5???? Management Accounting 10% coursework 90% finals

I'm pregnant?!!

2009-01-07T17:18:00.000+08:00

I didn't have a very satisfying sleep yesterday night...all thanks to the weird dream i have.. and it is quite obvious what my dream is about from the title of this post.. YESH! I'm PREGNANT!! in my dream and not in reality! I'm pregnant and MARRIED for god damn sake! The funniest thing is when my friends ask me who is my husband i said... "Ermm.. I forgot.. Let me recall." Swt.. which woman in this world would forget their husband when they are not even suffering from alzheimer or amnesia or some mental problems!!! I even have this wedding ring where the diamonds would FALL OFF!! What a cheapskate... wedding ring also buy fake one.. i'm so not gonna get married with this guy in my dream. Pleaselar, since i'm not planning to get married for a few times, i deserve something better than a fake ring for my wedding. Tsk.. Anyway, don't worry guys. It is all just a dream, i won't really go off marrying some random guys and get pregnant... Might happen to some other girls but definitely not me. Gonna abstain from sex until...umm... the time is right?? Whenever that may be.. but definitely not in the near future though. Don't wanna messed up my life when i'm supposed to be working hard to earn some $$$~

If i'm going to have any dreams again tonight..i hope it is some happy happy ones where i could wake up smiling and certainly NO PREGNANT DREAMS ANYMORE! It freaked me out so much that when i woke up from it, i immediately feel my belly to make sure that it is still flat and all that were just a dream.. PHEW >.<

Stupid Me!!

2009-01-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i went back to Nilai University College (jungle college) to register for my new semester, and you know what? The queue was super duper long!!!! I'm so confused that i decided to queue up in the longest line without even looking for the signs which state which queue is for which thingy. And so, i queue for a FREAKIN 40 MINUTES IN THE WRONG LINE!! Stupid stupid stupid me! It wasted so much of my time.. sigh.. The 'fees calculation' queues were like 10 times SHORTER than the queue i was in previously( Collection of result slip). I couldn't believe I was so stupid to be in the wrong line for 40 minutes! Swt swt. Maybe i should thank god..why?.. because, at least i found out before i reach and they say "Miss, i believe you are in the wrong queue". Anyway, manage to settle my fees and registration by 12.10pm ( i came at 10.15am). Not gonna let this happen to me again..

Note to myself: CHECK BEFORE YOU QUEUE!

This post is gonna remind me of my blurness forever~ sigh..

Boys more important than girls?!

2009-01-04T15:01:00.000+08:00

Why is it that boys are always more important than girls?! From young till now, i'm forced to see it happening to my own life! My parents, especially my mom is so biased when it comes to me and my younger brother... She always say yes to whatever he wants and NO! to anything and everything i ever wanted to do or wished to own! Thank god i have my grandma there for me to give me the neccessary amount of love needed for a child to grow up healthily without serious sense of inferiority or mental problems.. I really love her a lot.. I really wish she would be with me for my whole life although i know it is not possible since she is turning 66 soon and i'm only turning 21 this year... Well, let's just hope she leads a longer and happy life~

My mom on the other hand, never cared for me till i'm like around 12 or so... So, how am i suppose to love her the most?? When people tell me that i should not treat her this way, it just mean that they don't understand my conditions and family situation well enough. If they know what has happened to me when i was young, they would totally understand why I feel so much for my grandma and nothing much for her.

I still remember the time when i slipped at home due to wet slippery floor and i landed on my back like 'BAM' and kicked the washing machine at the same time. My mom actually rushed towards the scene and looked at the WASHING MACHINE! instead of the poor me whom supposedly is her daughter and is suffering with backache due to the fall... Well...what was i hoping? words of concern? or shows of sympathy? Whatever! It is not like i'm gonna get it no matter how much i yearn for it that time..

I really don't feel like saying what has initiated me to post this today but you guys should know better that it is definitely something cuz something like 'I'm not as loved as my brother' thing happened again.. sigh..

Kay. End of my complaints and rants. Bye.

P.S: New Year Post will continue when my mood turns better....and to add to my emoing now, i'm feverish! Geez.. life is so miserable.. plus i'm going back to jungle tomorrow and stuffs.. =.="

I was so happy on New Year Eve~ PART 1

2009-01-03T22:43:00.000+08:00

On the 31st of December 2008, I expected nothing much would happened as I never have dates or plans on New Year Eve all these 19 years!!! But seems like GOD loves me lots and decided that I deserved something on this very day and TADA! I gotten my hair rebonded so it is now really straight and I actually went out and celebrate New Year Eve with my friends!! Now..don't laugh at me! You guys had no idea that i was always feeling a bit lonely on the last day of the year..everyone went countdown or celebrate somewhere but i was ALWAYS staying at home, watching ASTRO AEC for fireworks around the world and stuffs... Plain boring..

What exactly did happened on New Year Eve..

First, my grandma was nagging at me telling me that i need a new hair cut for Chinese New Year. I don't wanna get my hair trimmed off because it wouldn't helped tidying up my messy hair ends!! Then i decided to cut it real short, just above my shoulder to get rid of those messy ends but everyone is against it..saying that i would look fat and ugly with short haircut.. So..i was undecided again.. I even went online to look up for some nice medium hairstyles and guess what? All those models' hairstyles are so unpractical for me, a girl who don't use hair spray and stuffs to make my hair stay as it is! Less than a minute before I went to the saloon together with my grandma, my aunt and my cousin sis (yes, everyone is going), I decided to straighten my hair! That is the best solution anyway... My hair would then be tidy and flat and pretty! Hehehe...

Before, my friends and my aunt always provide me with scary information such as your hair would spoil, your hair would look lesser, you will look fatter with straight hair, you can't sleep with that hair for a week or it will go all cacat and stuffs.. Now, i just shrugged all those off behind me and ish determined to get my hair rebonded! Heheh.. So..my hair is all straight and pretty now~ Hehehehehehe

Right after i get home(after 3 hours of rebonding session), I gotten an sms from my dear Wei Ling saying "Wanna come over to Centro?" I was like Huh? what was she saying? is this sms even directed to me? it was like so out of the blue and thus i asked her on msn. She said since Maki's New Year Eve plans are cancelled, they decided for a meetup at Starbucks, Centro! I was like Yoohoo! So i quickly took a bath and get ready before Leng(my nick for Wei Ling) and her brother came and pick me up!

When we were in Starbucks, there is this promotion for Christmas or something and it is BUY ONE FREE ONE TREAT! I was like O.O, yesh! cheaper drinks..cuz i'm actually quite broke...swt.. The choice is between Dark Cherry Mocha and Toffee Nut..since Dark Cherry Mocha is sweeter, i decided to get that one.. We sat there chatting and drinking when this weird guy came up to us and ask whether he can take our photo? I wanted to say NO but he quickly added that he will print the photos for us later.. and we are all like YES! So.. a memorable photo before the clock strikes 12~ The photo turns out GREAT! We all LUV it!

credits to Audrey for this piccy~

Anyway, we took turns going to the washroom cuz we were afraid our seats would be taken since there were a lot of ppl there. The clock is striking 12 anytime soon and we were looking around for possible fireworks breakout or something. And then we hear 6..5...4...3....2...1...HAPPY NEW YEAR!. We went outside to watch the fireworks only to get the bits of it falling on our head...>.>

Next, we went to Leng's house.....stay tuned for Part 2. Haha

Back to blogging~

2009-01-03T21:32:00.000+08:00

Well then...as the title shows, i'm back! haha.. It is not like anyone is reading my blog anyway...so why bother announcing it. Although i said so, but here am i, typing a post to put up in my blog. This is really random because I have like a month holiday and i never bothered to blog at all...swt
But now that i look back, i regretted so much that i did not make an effort to keep blogging because all those past memorable events that happened in my life are not puts to words..which would last longer(or maybe even forever) than the memory box in my mind. Recently, i suspect i have an illness called the 'Short-termed memory loss'! This is so so so not good, i forget my friend's birthday, i forget where i put my stuffs and i even forget everything that seems important to me last time! Swt swt..
Maybe i should just make a short list of past memorable events here to make up to my MIA in blogspot...lol

Memorable Eventsn (not in chronological order)
1) My 19th birthday celebration!!
- On 4th October(a day before my b'day), i celebrated with wei ling, ee von, gun and april. Later at night, my beloved beautiful aunt treated me to Don Kaizen! hehe
- On 5th October(on my b'day itself), i celebrated with some of my close coursemates (Loon Yang, Xue Fen and William)
- On 7th October(2 days after my b'day), my coursemates threw me a surprise b'day party! haha...although i found out about it beforehand cuz of Fox's carelessness~ hahaha. he is funny.

2) CF and sleepover with my GD gang(Wei Ling, Audrey and Lysa)

3) New Year Eve celebration with GD gang~

4) Sunway Lagoon outing with coursemates~

5) Ee Von's bday celebration~

Somehow, my brain is a bit stucked at the moment... maybe the weather is too cold till my brain actually freezes?! O.O
Anyway, i will try to update as much as possible..depending on my mood and my time..oh yeah, nearly forgotten..and my connection!!! Since stupid Nilai has real bad connection.. I couldn't help not coming online to post anything.. lol..

Well then, the next post should be coming in real soon! (I hope.. =.=")

Anyband CF featuring Xiah JunSu (TVXQ), Boa, Tablo (Epik High) and also Bora

2007-11-09T00:09:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh! I didn't know there is such CF in production and it is already OUT NOW!! *faints* My Jun Su is so drop dead gorgeous in it!! Well, sorry for Boa fans but i found her annoying cuz she dominated almost 60% of the CF... not just appearance but also the song.. Sigh.. Just couldn't bring myself to like this girl.. No comments towards Tablo and Bora cuz i never know of their existence until i watch the CF... Well, personally i think Tablo is good in rapping and Bora is kinda cool with the way she plays the 'piano' (whatever you call it)! However, the Tablo in the making of the video somehow seems a bit more chubby compared to the CF...

What i like about JunSu in this CF?
1) The cool aura emitted by him
2) The extension on his hair
3) His make-up!! EYELINER!!
4) His VOICE of course!
5) Nice outfit
6) The specky him! (so cute..and cool at the same time)
7) His smile...
*) His actions..

Basically, it is everything of him in that CF that i like... Couldn't help it...I'm infected with a very contagious and deadly TVfXQ virus which is critically dangerous and may cause death of a person because of overdose.. Hehe... I'm barely hanging on to my life the last time i saw them during the "Rising Sun 1st Live Concert in Malaysia". Ask Wei Ling and she would definitely shake her head..lol..

Can't keep blabbing without some eye candy to prove my words ne?

Junsu holding the phone by the pool

Nice Outfit!!

His breathtaking smile~

Singing on top of the building!

From right: Tablo, Boa, Bora and my JunSu!

I'll end it with a pic of my JunSu with specs... He is still so attractive to me eventhough he is wearing specs..maybe that's what that makes this picture so special... Casual but handsome pose~ Nice! ~V~Goodnight my dear blog and also my beloved TVfXQ...

Countdown to TVfXQ 2nd Asia Tour Concert in Malaysia : 15 days more

Rantz....=.="

2007-11-03T21:58:00.001+08:00

Today is not a very good day to me...sigh...Somehow, i am a little bit depressed for no apparent reason.. There are things that bothers me and gives me a headache. I bought this pink dress which is 'V' cut and my family don't let me wear it for God's sake! It is not like i'm exposing much flesh of myself but just a mere cleavage and shoulder..sigh.. Why are they so conservative? It is already 21st century and i'm still not allowed to wear a dress that i adore so much?! I can see how my money is wash down the drain... Hmm.. Must brainstorm a solution to this problem because my aunt's wedding buffet is next week's Friday and i'm still debating with my family on this dress issues!!

The second problem of mine is that I could not make up my mind on whether i should support or oppose the title of my academic essay, "Should parents be blamed for youth violence". It is a hard decision but I'm sure i will be forced to make one soon as the deadline is slowly creeping towards me!! This reminds me of something... A poem i learnt when i was in form 1 i think...Life Brief Candle by William Shakespeare.

Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time,
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools,
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more.
It is a tale, told by an idiot, full of sound and fury
Signifying nothing.

Actually i've always wonder why do i live in the first place? It is not like my existence actually mean something to anyone or affects anyone's destiny. Why must i try my best in everything and exhaust myself to the point of dying? Something must be wrong with me or should i blamed it on the 'kiasu' cells in me? It is not that i can't afford to lose to anyone but it is more like i enjoy the taste of victory and a sense of accomplishment!! It is satisfying everytime i managed to pull everything together and produce a near to perfect stuffs. Maybe life isn't so bad after all.. If i am not alive in the first place, i would not be able to taste all these interesting emotions in me! Haha.. This post of mine really show how conflicting my personalities are but who cares?! That is me, I don't need anyone's acceptance but myself. It is a free country with the freedom of speech and actions! (yeah right..)

Time for bed! Eyes still a bit red and swollen so i have to at least give it a good rest..
Good Night to my dear blog...

Meh 1st post for my 1st blog

2007-11-02T19:16:00.000+08:00

Hmm...my blog huh... not a bad idea.. this way i can throw all my rants and thoughts here without receiving any unnecessary complaints or insensitive comments face to face from homosapiens who called themselves humans.. Yeah right..>.>
Life is fun i guess if everything happens according to your wish but for me, i'm beginning to see the ultra-negative part of my life..sigh.. Maybe i have exaggerate it a little bit but still i can say that i am depressed most of the time. Stress, pressure, friends, family, assignment, lecturers, presentation, campus life, health, looks, weight, skin colour, etc.. have all contributed to my depression before...
Now, the positive side of my life will be... hmm.. definitely there is something... Let me list it down..
1) The existence of my beloved grandmother (the most important person in my life)
2) Wei Ling as my best friend
3) Dong Bang Shin Ki as the subject of my fanaticism
4) Lovely friends to accompany me in this boring life
5) Others...
Lazy wanna write anymore... better carry on in my research for academic essay..

The end of my 1st post...